I had a psychiatrist who would tell me I was not manic when I knew I was and my family knew I was. This was frustrating because I felt like he didn’t believe me and therefore was not helping me.
I now have a very new psychiatrist who I think believes me, but does not want me to get admitted to a psychiatric hospital when I get manic. This has always been a back up plan when I get into serious trouble. Therefore, I am now left with “what now?”
I think I am learning is to not freak out when I am manic. I need to take on responsibilities myself and can’t rely on doctors, medications, and the hospitals.
This is not something totally new to me, but something I need to start remembering. I should use my manic energy, but be smart about it.
Blogs I have written in the past that I need to remember and use to heed my own advice:
I need to pace myself and remember all the things I need to do when I am manic. I am really bad about knowing things that work and not doing them. This includes depression. I spend months depressed so severe that I don’t leave the house or even bed many days. I can’t or more likely don’t use the techniques I have written about. It is an unhealthy choice I am making and I need to get off this roller coaster. I so have a choice more than I think I do during the difficult times. It is just hard to push myself to do them. No more excuses!
Going back to not freaking out when I manic, I need to do all the things that I would be doing in the hospital at home and follow my action plan to the tee. I will be all right and I will get through this.