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They say… -They say that everyday above ground is a good day.
They say when life gives you lemons you’ve gotta make lemonade.
They say that when things don’t turn out the right way
That’s okay because tomorrow is always a new day,
Ya know, they say a lot of things about how I should feel, -But let’s get real,
They don’t know me
They are not me
They don’t have to force themselves out of bed every morning and stumble to the mirror and see me.
And I’m not talking about the me that they’d see
If they were standing next to me
As I shied away from my reflection,
I’m talking about the REAL me.
The secret me that I keep hidden behind lock and key -Because I know that if they ever saw it -Even THEY’D say that those lemons are too spoiled,
And even water and sugar can’t help THAT medicine go down. -And I’m not talking about the Depakote, Wellbutrin, or Xanax getting caught in your throat,
To quote Alanis Morissette, I’m talking about the jagged little pill that they call truth
Getting stuck because it’s too hard to swallow. ….
De Cartes said, “I think, therefore I am.” -He said that the only thing that I can be sure of is that I exist,
Beyond this, everything else is a question.
Nowhere is this proven more true
Than in those with mental health issues.
You can give me all your quotes, proverbs, and platitudes,
But the fact is that for me
Tomorrow is not a new day.
It may be true for you,
But obviously my truth is different than yours,
Because when I lie in bed the night before
I don’t think about tomorrow. -I think about today,
What I could’ve, should’ve, would’ve done better than I did yesterday,
And I can’t stop the relay race of thoughts in my mind
As they reach back in time -Struggling to find -Every single thing that I’ve ever done wrong,
So it can take it from yesterday and pass it off to today -And remind me that tomorrow is not a new day,
It’s just a new way of getting it wrong. ….
They say… -They say that they can’t understand how anyone could be so selfish as to take their own life.
Well I say -I don’t understand how anyone can be so blind as to see someone set on fire everyday -And not understand why they might want to put out the flames.
I say… -I say that I can’t understand how anyone could be so selfish as to want someone to burn -Just so they don’t have to feel guilty or question anything.
And I’m not saying that suicide is the right way,
And I’m not saying that’s how I want to end things, -But that’s what mental illness is.
“I think, therefore I am,” -“I think, therefore I am,” -“I think, therefore I am,” -And when I am in pain seemingly every single day -It makes sense that eventually all I’m going to think about is how to make that go away. -It makes sense that if all I can think about is the pain of yesterday,
Then tomorrow is not really a new day, -Because that means that today is just remembering or anticipating the same old pain in new ways. …. -Fear of judgement is the number one reason that those with mental health issues do not seek help. -They say that society is getting better with that.
Suicide is the 8th leading cause of death in the US. -They say that society is getting better with that. -Along with millions of other people, I suffer from mental health issues. -They say that we’ll get better with that. -They say that tomorrow is new day. -They say… -They say…a lot of things.
But now it’s time for them to understand.