If you have bipolar disorder and have done some really off the wall things, it does not really do you any good to dwell on it. Move on and laugh it off. By dwelling on the silly things you did and what people are going to think of you, is wasting time. Move on.
Sometimes they can be things that you are really shameful about, but if you take the right approach to it, then it will be a healthier decision.
I have done some really crazy things while I was manic. Often times it has taken me months if not years to put them in my past. Why do I waste my time dwelling on them?
I have a mental illness. Sometimes, I am going to get manic and I have to accept that. I am accountable for what I do and really do not like using my illness as an excuse. However, I also know that I wouldn’t have done them if I was not in a manic episode. It is an explanation not an excuse.
Today, I had somewhat of a revelation. I am currently feeling like I might be on the pathway to mania. I told my support system including my fiancee. I told him I as flying. I had never used that term as I always had said racing. Well, in my book, flying is worse. Anyway, he asked me if I was flying as that I am manic. I said no, I am flying to Las Vegas, Nevada. He was confused so I said that that is something I might do when I was manic. I thought that made light of things.
Awhile after I have had a manic episode and done things I am not proud of, I dwell on it for a long time. Eventually, I can usually laugh at it. However, wouldn’t be better to just deal with it right away? Face up- I screwed up. Most people don’t even know that I did. They might think I am odd, but you don’t have to have a mental illness to do odd things.
Plus who cares what they think? It is what I think. I have never ended up in jail or lost my job because of something I have done . I may have lost friends, but that is fine and understandable.
So, if you are currently ashamed about something you have done in the past because you were manic, think of a way it could be made into a joke and laugh it off. Move on as it is not healthy to keep thinking about it and dwelling on it.
I did a blog awhile ago entitled “How Do People with Bipolar Disorder Deal with Things They’ve Done While in a Manic Episode?” that you might want to read that pertains to this.
I would love to hear your stories of how you have made light of things. Please send them to firstname.lastname@example.org I plan to do a blog in the future listing those. I will not use names.
Go out and be odd!