Guest Blogger: A Christian with Bipolar II by Kalie

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I have known something was wrong with me from the age of 5. I cried myself to sleep most nights.  I had highs but more lows. I became a Christian and a lot of things changed in my life. I stopped partying and being wild. I gave my life to Christ and was baptized 20 years ago.

I have struggled in my walk more than those without bipolar. Bipolar disorder causes you to not be able to stay focused so reading the word of God and prayer is really hard sometimes.  I believe that God takes into consideration our mental illness. Not that it is an excuse for not reading his word and praying. I am really starting to finally learn about my bipolar disorder.

I was diagnosed 20yrs ago but chose to ignore it. I don’t know, but maybe I thought it would go away.  I went into a 3 yr depression after all my kids moved away. I decided to either die or get help. During that depression I fell away from God. I had nothing to do with him. I know he was still with me. I was unable to function and again I think he takes these things into consideration.

I started praying again. I truly believe it was God who convinced me to get help. I went to our mental health center and started counseling and got on new meds. I believe God, meds, counseling and my willingness to make changes helped me. They all worked together. I was able to address past hurts. There is an old cliché that says “I have baggage.” Well, my new saying is I unpacked my bags and put it all away! I decided to become proactive. I wanted to learn everything I can about bipolar II.

I have learned so very much in the last 8 months. I found out a lot of things that I do or feel is from the bipolar disorder.   I know some people say we shouldn’t blame everything on our mental illness and I agree. I have come fully back to God. I am reading His word and have been in prayer.  I attend church on a regular basis. My walk now is relaxed and deep. I enjoy God and am not anxious about what he wants from me. He blesses me every day.  I hold a ladies bible study once a week.  I have always wondered where my ministry was. I have found it.

I have started a bipolar online support group. I post Christian videos and inspirational sayings. Scriptures are also posted. I talk openly to others about Jesus. I brought a young lady to Christ. It was God’s first conversion thru me. I have been so blessed by this. I am now talking to another lady about Christ. I have definately found my ministry. I am growing in my walk. Christianity is not a onetime thing it is a journey as our life with bipolar is a journey. Being a Christian helps me with the bipolar. I am calm and at peace. I have the joy of the Lord ALL the time as the Bible tells us we should be.

Yes I still have mania and depression. I am medicated and I am working on a work book to learn to control my thoughts so then I can control my emotions.  I hope this blog helps u in some way to see you as beautiful. That’s the way God see’s you. Whatever you do, don’t get discouraged in your walk with God. Don’t think of bipolar disorder as a curse. Instead, embrace it as a blessing.

The valleys are where we grow. Without them we are nothing. Bipolar is a valley and we will come to the mountain top. God is good all the time. You can use this as a ministry as I am. God doesn’t want us to sit around feeling sorry for ourselves. He wants us to use what we have to serve Him.  Please don’t allow people in the Church tell you that bipolar is a spiritual issue. It is not a demon. There is scientific proof that it is a chemical imbalance in our brain. Don’t ever be ashamed of who you are or that you have bipolar disorder. You are here for a purpose. Dig deep and find out what your ministry is.

In Christ, Kalie Dalbey

Check out the link below for Bipolar Angel on facebook         https://www.facebook.com/groups/bipolarangel/

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About Michelle Clark Bipolar Bandit

I am a strong advocate for the mentally ill and have been since I was first approached by a lawyer in a psychiatric facility as a teenager. He wanted me to help him fight how the mentally ill are mistreated. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 17 after a full blown manic episode. Before that, I suffered from debilitating depression for 4 years. My goals are to help others by sharing my story and providing tips to deal with mania and depression. I often write blogs related to advocating for people like myself. I want to encourage, inspire, and educate those with #bipolar disorder and other mental illnesses and also include inspirational #quotes. I founded the group Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses and the page Mental Health Advocates United and have several social media sites that are related to bipolar disorder and/or advocacy. If you are an advocate or would like to be, I hope you join our FB group: Advocates for People with Mental Illnesses
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4 Responses to Guest Blogger: A Christian with Bipolar II by Kalie

  1. Kim says:

    ‘A Christian With Bipolar 11 by Kalie’

    Like this piece a lot; sensible, realistic and makes sense of BP in a Christian context:
    “Beautiful. …… That’s how God sees you.”
    I believe that. It’s a shame often it’s harder for us to feel that way about ourselves.Also true BP is not an all round excuse for bad behaviour or egotism: that’s where Christian faith comes in. The desire to help others, live God’s laws and subject our selves to Him. Nota popular concept these days but easy to do in practice when you know He knows what’s best for us & loves us.

  2. tchau.net says:

    This is my first time visit at here and i am genuinely pleassant to
    read everthing at one place.

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