I had symptoms starting at age 5. I felt sad and cried, but I never understood why. When I was 31, I finally talked to a PA at my doctor’s office about the way I felt. She said it sounds like bipolar disorder. She put me on Depakote and it was like night and day. I wasn’t officially diagnosed until a few months ago by a trained professional. I am on Cymbalta and Lamictal.
I am doing much better. I have been married for 31 yrs and we have 3 kids ages 28, 25, and 23. The two oldest are married and we have 5 grandkids between them. Even though I have known I was bipolar for 19 yrs old, I was in denial until 4 1/2 yrs ago. I went into a deep depression for 3 yrs and couldn’t function. I think all my kids moving away triggered that depression. I decided I had to get help or I was going to die. I was diagnosed officially last year and have been in therapy and getting better. I am learning to recognize mania and depression and what my triggers are. Educating myself on bipolar disorder has helped me understand it. I always thought I was crazy, but I know now I am not crazy and that it is bipolar disorder.